
You know what? It feels good to be back in the water after 5 weeks spent on my couch doing nothing. Finally, I can kite again. Of course, no high jumps & no tricks for now, but at least I can cruise on the crystal clear lagoon of my island home of Moorea, go play with the stingrays, chase the little reef sharks (you know the 3-ft black tips), get closer to the dolphins in the pass and even catch a few waves at the reef. Not to mention the fact that I finally get to practice my sport and hang out again on the beach with the coolest people in the world; smiling, easy going, just friendly. To tell you the truth, I feel like I’m finally coming back to life: feeling the wind in my hair, the warmth of the sun on my skin and the water flowing on my body is priceless.
Better yet, it feels good to realize how much better I’m getting every day. Of course, my lower leg is still sore, and I think it’s going to take at least 3 more weeks before everything gets back to normal. But during the last 2 weeks, I’ve undoubtedly made some progress: when I first got back into the water, 6 weeks after my accident, I could barely stand on my board, I couldn’t do a basic turn, and every minute was just uncomfortable and painful. I think it was the first time that I ever hated to be in the water. The only feeling that came out of this first session was one of intense frustration.

But then, session after session, I could definitely see some progress: I started to feel good again with my kite, to turn properly, to ride like I used to, without feeling any discomfort. Every session was getting longer, and every time I would go back in the water, it was all about pushing myself a little bit more, either staying longer or starting to go back in the waves. I thought: I can’t surf for now, I can’t jump with my kite, so I’m going to surf with my kite. I started catching the waves on the shoulder, just to make sure I could ride them with a weaker leg, and slowly made my way to the peak as I was feeling more confident.
So yes, to path to recovery is all about focusing on the progress you make every single day, without forgetting how far you’ve come from: just 8 weeks ago, I was lying on my couch, crying and taking painkillers every few hours. Now, I can’t surf, but at least I can kitesurf., thus combining my 2 passions in just one session. Magic, huh?
Now I’m not going to lie, I’m part of those people who think “If you can’t do something 100%, don’t do it – do or do not, there is no try”, so I still feel kind of frustrated because I can’t do the tricks I love and continue to progress in my sport. And I know it is far from being a healthy state of mind, since you’re always aiming at the top without being able to reach it all the time. However, I’ve learned that paying attention to every single step you’re taking on this path, is the best way to reach your destination.
-Vainui